It started...
I was sitting on the couch, catching up on blog reading and it hit me....
I wasn't sure what it was at first so I didn't think much about it...
Then I was laying in bed...and it hit me again...
And then again....and again....and again....
Hot flashes!!
Omg...I even had a hard time typing that!
Hot flashes.
Something that I heard about...
But never thought I'd have any...
After all...isn't that for Old women??
Isn't that what they call perimenopause? The stage of a woman's reproductive life that begins several years before menopause.
But I don't want to!!
That means the permanent end to my fertility!
I wasn't planning on having any more but I want to make that decision and this is something that I can't control.
Makes me really sad thinking about it.
How can that be possible. I remember when I was younger and heard the term "menopause" and laughed it off thinking that was something that won't happen for many, many years....when I'm "older"....
And here I am...
How did I get to this? I swear I was just starting my period....I didn't get mine till I was 16 years old. My mom said she thought something was wrong and was ready to take me to the doctors. That really was like yesterday. I can remember it clear as day. Thirty years ago. Why oh why can't time stand still?? I didn't ask for this so why does it have to be?
Some women look forward to this time. No more periods. Good bye tampons. I guess there are some positive things about it but right now I can't see that. All i can think about is that the term menopause is something that happens when your older. I'm not older in my mind...but my body isn't listening.
I'm trying to find the lighter side of all of this and really got a laugh out of this video.
If you want to enlighten me on any of this...please do!
