I had a day off on Tuesday! At the company I work for if you work the day before a holiday, then you get to take another day off in the same pay period so I worked New Year's Eve and so I decided to take Tuesday off because Joe has off and we could spend the day together!
I woke up at my regular time on Tuesday because I still had to get Short ready for school. After he got on the bus I did some blog reading until Joe got up. We then headed out for breakfast at our favorite diner/restaurant where I ordered the pancakes I have been craving! I ate every bite...and was even done before Joe!!
After that Joe dropped me off at Salvation Army (I LOVE to look there...I always find the best things) while he went to the gym. I managed to find $45.00 worth of things and had a whole bag to show for it! I got 3 pairs of jeans...one was from Banana Republic that look like they were never worn for $5.99 which is a bargain compared to the normal price of $89.50!! I also got a pair from Ann Taylor Loft for $4.99 and another pair for $3.99! I got Short a Spyder fleece jacket for $4.99 that I was eying up on Backcounty.com for $70.00! I got an Under Armour jacket for $3.99, a pair of Aeropostale plaid sleep pants for $2.99, Adidas sweatpants for Tall for $3.99, American Eagle plaid sleep pants for Grande for $2.99 and a couple of pairs of shorts and some t-shirts!
Then we went next door and found carpet for our bedroom, the stairs, hallway and the boys rooms. They are coming today to measure. New carpet always makes everything seem new in the house! We are getting a beige color throughout and it will look so much nicer in a neutral color!
We then went home and I took all the tags off the clothes and through them in the washer with a little extra detergent! By then it was 1:30pm and my pancakes were wearing off and I was getting hungry so we decided to head to our favorite lunch place! We both ordered the chopped salad with chicken and balsamic dressing and a large wheat pizza. This place has the BEST salad and pizza I have ever eaten! An hour later and not a crumb to be found! I was so full but it was so good! We would not be eating dinner that night!
We headed home but didn't quite want to end the day just yet so we decided to drive around and look at houses...something we love to do! We went through this neighborhood near the restaurant that we had never seen before and saw some gorgeous houses! We then headed in the direction of home and thought we would ride through the neighborhood we both grew up in which is only about 5 minutes from our house.
By then it was around 3:30pm and said we should head home as the boys would be getting home soon. We were about 2 minutes from our house when I was going down a pretty steep hill (I was driving)....we were talking about the carpet and Joe must have been looking at me cause he didn't see it....but I did....right over Joe's shoulder....at the bottom of the hill...I saw a deer leap out of the woods and right into our car! I screamed and all I heard was a bump...bump....."omg...I hit him" (although I think it was a doe)....and I looked into my rearview mirror and saw the deer roll and then got up an ran.....Joe said, "I didn't even see it"....but then he saw it in the mirror too.....I started crying and Joe's all worried about the car having damage which was the last thing on my mind! He said for me to pull into a parking lot at the top of the hill. I pulled in and put my hands up to my face and started bawling. Joe got out to look at the damage and walks around several times and gets back into the car. "I can't believe it"...he says....."there's not a scratch!"
I was sobbing sitting there thinking about the poor deer and if he was hurt. Joe suggested we go back and look which made me cry even harder. I couldn't go look! What if she was laying there....alive...and hurt!! I couldn't do it! Joe said for me to stay there and he would walk back and look himself.
I watched Joe get smaller and smaller in my rearview mirror....the smaller he got the sadder I got thinking about what he was going to find. Joe eventually disappeared out of the mirror and so I no longer had the comfort of seeing him. I sat there feeling so sad for that deer and I looked down and watched the tears make a wet mark on jeans thinking how happy the day was and how quickly it can turn unhappy.
What seemed like hours and was probably only 5 - 10 minutes, I could finally see Joe appear again in the mirror. His head hung low and and my tears got bigger......
He got in the car and sat there for a couple of minutes....
"I don't see him Java....I looked everywhere...."
"Did you look into the woods?"
"On both sides...cause she could have run into either side?"
"I did Java....nothing...I don't see anything...I walked all over"
He tried to cheer my up and said that I should be thankful that there was nothing wrong with the car AND the deer wasn't lying down there.
But I couldn't.....
I thought about it all night. Thinking the deer was hurt. Lying in the woods in pain. I felt so awful.
Then I thought maybe Joe did see the deer lying down there and he just didn't tell me.....I asked him...sure did....and he swears he didn't see it anywhere....
I can't get it out of my mind. People hit deer everyday...some even deliberately and don't think twice about it. But its me...the one who takes bugs out of the house instead of killing them......the one who would rather wreck the car and avoid hitting an animal.....